A Week of Mixed Emotions

Another week has come and gone. This past week has been a mix of things, and I can’t believe how it’s all happening and falling together. It’s currently 63 days, 1512 hours, 90,720 minutes until I start my new life in my new place that I will soon call home. The countdown is definitely on! In the last year there have been many significant things that have happened that have signified the birth of my new life, however moving in my place feels like the official ribbon cutting ceremony.

I’ve been doing some freaking out this past week about in regards to moving into my new condo. Don’t get me wrong, I’m super excited to see the finished product. To see all  my hard work in person, to decorate, to have my own official space again BUT I’m also realizing that all these things aren’t nearly as fun when your buying and building a home with a partner. It’s scary.  It’s Terrifying. It makes me a little nauseated when I stop and think about if for more than 5 minutes at a time. It worries me about how I’m going to cope when it’s all said and done and it’s just me, the four new shiny walls, and my boxes. What will happen next? What do I do next? The feeling of ‘Now What’ gets me stressed since I’ve always been a person who needs to see a plan to keep calm. This feels like a true test for sure. It’s definitely a different way of life that I’m not quite used to. I’m sure this is just life’s plan for me to start living a little bit outside the original lines I’ve drawn for myself. I can only hope it’s going to be a colourful masterpiece in time!

This past week was also a very expensive week for me. I bought a new LCD TV for my new place and a new pillow top mattress. $1,500 later I walked away with nothing to show until it gets delivered Sept. 15^th. I hate that feeling. I know I bought something but it feels like I just got my bank account robbed. The new mattress is quite heavenly, it’s like sleeping on a bed of feathers. I think it may even be softer than my last bed. The only downfall is that it’s a bit smaller than I’m use to – it’s a queen. L But it’s only me so I don’t really NEED a King, although I’m sure I’ll have some warm company eventually in my new queenie. ;)

Hmmmm….What else happened this past week? OH YEAH… I got trashed! It’s not the way it sounds. Since I escaped walking down the aisle, I had a wedding dress and a photography credit to utilize. So I decided to get my girls, in our “ex-wedding attire” and have some fun. I trekked my girls, a big poufy wedding dress, 4 bridesmaid dresses, some rifles, paint and a professional photographer through the bush to get to the Barber Paper Mill in Georgetown. This place is SO cool. It’s a HUGE old abandoned mill that has been trashed. Tons of graffiti, broken down bricks and remnants of old architecture. It was perfect backdrop to trash our outfits. I’m super excited to see the final product of the photographers work. I started out clean and ended up like the corpse bride. I’ll be sure to share the REAL photos once I get them. At the end of the session I ended up in the Credit River soaking wet, dirty and painted. All I can say is that wedding dresses weigh a ton to begin with never mind getting them soaking wet. This photo shoot was fun for me, but it was an opportunity to get rid of my dress in a fun artistic way. This was also the first time I had been reunited with my dress in a year and a half. It was time to free myself of all the things the wedding dress represented. It was undoubtedly a liberating experience. At the very end of the shoot we each hung our dresses on the fence that surrounds the mill as if they were displays of art. The people who come to explore the Barber Paper Mill next will be greeted by a wedding party of dresses and I can’t help but wonder what they will think. The strangest feeling was walking away and leaving them hanging there. A wedding dress is more than fabric and stitches, it represents so much more. This was my first wedding dress I had ever bought which did mean something to me so I wanted to give ‘her’ the send off she deserves and I think I accomplished that with great friends by my side. It’s Thanks to a friend who took some photos on his Blackberry that I can share some photos from the day. These aren’t the best quality but it certainly gives you an idea.

Enjoy the sneak preview below.

~J